Friends,
I know it has been a long time since I have updated. I know.
There have been different experiences during these past two months where I have thought, "Blog about this!" But thoughts never had enough momentum to turn into action and I cannot explain why. Probably a big factor was the fact that I myself was still kind of in this state of shock that I was in Flagstaff. Honestly, I didn't feel settled into Flag until maybe a few weeks ago and while things felt unsettled it was hard to get a grasp on reality. And do you ever get the feeling that sometimes silence and stillness is a necessity for sanity?
Well, this Thanksgiving break I was determined to write an update! And in fact on the day of Black Friday I was at the mall, not shopping, oh no no, but sitting in a cafe writing an entry. I was halfway through with the entry I had written with lots of emotion and occasional teariness in remembering God's grace shown to me when I decided it was time to take a break. I packed up my backpack and moved deeper into the mall to those couches where all the men sit while they wait for their loved ones to finish shopping. I just sat there and read a little. In the part of the book I was reading the author talks about his interaction with this girl. Girl asks guy where his backpack is. He responds by saying he doesn't know. Girl asks, "Well, aren't you worried about losing it?" Guy responds with, "No, maybe in losing my possessions I'll find true freedom." Or something like that. And I sat there in the middle of the mall on Black Friday reading that while looking up at all the shoppers and thinking, "Yea, you people and your possessions... puh." Well, A few hours after that my backpack got stolen!
Have you seen the movie Stranger Than Fiction? This event would definitely fall under the "comedy" category. I don't even ever use my backpack, but for that weekend I decided to. What are the chances...
I just wanted to write about this event cos I genuinely find it a bit funny and also to let you know that an entry of what's been going on is still on its way. Honestly, I wasn't too sad about the loss of backpack and contents (laptop, books, journal). Yes, it is a big inconvenience, and I am a little disappointed about documentation I lost. My journal/calendar was in there and I am the type of psycho person that writes down the events and emotions of everyday on the calendar. But maybe the person who stole my backpack will read the honest content and testimony of my struggles and God's working in my heart and life over the past year and be caused to question if they are living a life that shows that God is working and moving. Wouldn't that be amazing?
As for me, I'll take this as a fresh start. I'm writing on a new computer that God hooked me up with through my aunt. I am going to invest in a new calendar/journal for this new year. And now that I feel a bit more settled in with this new community here in Flag, I'll serve strategically to the needs I see.
God is God, God is good.
Look for an update soon!
